Friday, February 26, 2010

Were you trying to read my ... diary?

... Were you trying to read my secret thoughts? you want me to read them to you?" Upright Citizens Brigade

Writing in here is essentially writing in a journal for all the world to see. I know that not many people care what I have to say, which is part of the reason why I don't start shouting out my posts in the middle of some coffee shop. I only expect my little sis & a handful of friends/family to glance at this. & then there's a few more random people that might look at what I write because it randomly shows up in their news feed on Facebook. But, what does it really matter, eh?

I was pondering the other day about how to get someone's attention. You see, I have a rather hard time with physical contact. There are a few people that I will feel comfortable exchanging physical contact with, that I might seek out for a hug or kind gesture. Maybe about.... 4 people, tops? Hmm, that seems a bit high to me, but let's keep it at 4 due to error. Everyone else falls into a range of awkward/uncomfortable to terrifying/painful when it comes to touch. & this can be for something as little as lightly brushing your arm to a random hug with a stranger. Most normal people don't feel this way about physical contact-- it's a normal, natural, healthy part of communication. Babies need physical contact to be able to survive (or something like that, I don't feel like fact checking right now). Handshakes are the norm in a business setting. Most guys expect a hug after a date. It's just the way the world moves; people typically thrive off of human contact. I realize that I'm not normal, & that trying to tell people that I'm not a "touchy person" doesn't always work. There's still the people that forget or don't think that you're *that* serious about it, or might even be offended that you don't give them a hug when they're so obviously trying to hug you in front of other people. & then there's the ever-dreaded, touching your arm to get your attention...

Why is it that some people feel the need to touch your arm in order to get your attention? I can see how it would be useful, but there are better ways of doing that. *As a side note, I hate the word "touch"; I'd rather say "physically contact" or "connect"... I believe that the best way to get someone's attention is to say their name. It doesn't have to be loud, since most people will be able to hear their name in a whisper. It's wonderful, really-- you get their attention in a personal way, communicating a bit of your intent for talking with them (through the tone of your voice), it lets them know that you know them, & it doesn't (usually) make that person feel as if they are in any sort of danger. There's no bubble violation. If the person doesn't hear you the first time, say it a bit louder, then feel free to touch their arm while saying their name. Or poke them.

As I read this post, it almost seems a bit silly, a bit superfluous: why should I describe a process that has been in place for millennia, that everyone already knows how to do? Maybe it's my way of finally letting the masses know (all 7 of you) that I can't handle most human touch. It freaks me out, & sometimes makes me feel as if I'm a seven year old about to have an epileptic seizure... If someone touches my arm, they get my attention, but my instinct is to back away, look for an escape route, or in some other way be put on the high alert defensive. If someone says my name, I'll pause & look the in the eye. They've caught my attention, but - more importantly- they've also garnered my respect.

The lesson: don't touch me, please. I'm trying to get over this quirk of mine, but life would be much better off if you'd simply say my name. the end.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Creating nanobots,

...Or locating Frankenstein's brain.
Phineas: It's over here!
(Phineas & Ferb theme song)

So, I made a rule for myself a while back that I cannot listen to music the day of a test until I've taken it. At least, nothing with words or something that will get stuck in my head, which is pretty much anything that I like to listen to (I once had the Indiana Jones theme stuck in my head for about 3 days..). However, I started to wonder about my base level of music-being-stuck-in-my-head-ness... My brother Brian kept a random, short-lived side blog that he'd update daily, called "First Song In My Head Today". As you can guess, each entry was simply the first song that he had in his head... that day.. As long as the artist, & he had a running playlist on the side so that you, too, could hear what he was hearing. So, on January 5th, after a rather odd dream, I decided to keep record for the rest of January of the 1st songs in my head. I'm not interested in adding music to my blog (too much effort, not enough interest on my part), but I'll see what I can do to give you an idea of what I was hearing/thinking each morning...
5: Thriller (Michael Jackson)
6: Popcorn Popping (children's songbook)
7: Fun, Fun, Fun (the Beach Boys)
8: Another One Bites the Dust (Queen)
9: Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog (sadly, no longer on Hulu. But you should still look up Joss Whedon)
10: the Comedy Sportz (CSz) name song, with the "doo-run-run". I went through pretty much all of the guys in the trombone section, & I have no idea why. It just kept going, & I kept having to think of rhymes, which is fine enough when it's "Dan", "Brad", "Lars", "Jon", "Steven", "Andy", "Mike", "Matt", "Bryan", & "Ben", but then you get "Taylor" "Jared", "Lyman", "Ethan", "Sterling", "Jacob", "Topher", "Koda", "Jason", David", & "Luke", some of which are much harder to rhyme with than I wanted to get into...
11: Still the One (Shania Twain)
12: I don't know what it's called, but all I remember was that it was a medley of various patriotic music (without being one in particular), & that day my roommate came home with a bunch of patriotic music for University Band. I thought it was eerie...
13: I Am the Greatest Man That Ever Lived (Weezer) & Friday Night(the Click Five)
14: Pink Elephants (from Disney's Dumbo)
15: Big Girls Don't Cry (Frankie Valli & The Four Seasons)
16: Let Me Go (Cake)
17: Groove Thing ( I think? it's in the pep band book)
18: Don't You Worry 'Bout a Thing (again, pep band), & then Funky Town
19: I Won't Say I'm In Love (Disney's Hercules)
20: Run & Tell That (Hairspray)
21: Under My Thumb (the Rolling Stones)
22: the ants go marching... (from Kindergarten)
23: Take Me Out to the Ball Game (except jazzy, & sung by Bro Mac... yeah, that was a weird dream...)
24: Makin' Whoopee (Ella Fitzgerald)
25: Hey, Baby! (the marching band version, & not the one by Bruce Channel/Margaret Cobb)
26: Santeria (Sublime)
27: D4-- Frankenstein (marching band music)
28: My Heavenly Father Loves Me (also known as "Whenever I hear the song of a bird", from the Children's Primary Songbook)
29: For the Beauty of the Earth (Mormon Tabernacle Choir)
30: Edge of Seventeen (Stevie Nicks)
31: Consider the Lilies (Mormon Tabernacle Choir)