It's true hard work never killed anybody,

..but I figure, why take the chance? (Ronald Reagan)

Sorry, but I find that quote amusing when you think about how that man is practically idolized by the type of Americans that think that welfare recipients are lazy bums who should just go out and work because they obviously haven't been looking hard enough for something to pay for their ridiculously overpriced necessities of food, clothing, and shelter... & that's all I'll say before someone tries to use a Keynesian Cross to ward me off..

I've been experiencing a rather strange phenomenon for the past duration of time, namely, that whenever I sit down to accomplish some sort of homework task my mind goes blank. I'm somewhat like a computer that's been left turned on for too long, and then neglected for a few hours while you go out to play, so that when you come back to it after it's been hibernating for a while everything takes twice as long to process and the time randomly gets frozen. That's about where I stand, except at the current moment I happen to be sitting-- no need to get into the awkwardness of standing at my own desk in my study, AKA practice room, AKA pantry, AKA closet. I think that my closet is about the same size as some of the bedrooms that you find South of Campus. Perhaps this is part of my problem-- I associate the library with too many people that I'd like to forget, so instead of living there like I was once so accustomed to, I have made my closet my personal study. The flaw in this is that the opportunities for distraction increase by tenfold when I'm in this roomy sub-room which means I end up finishing very little of the homework that I set out to do. Granted, I have no comparison to the way I'd perform if I were in a different study environment, as personal behaviour changes from year to year. I think that all of this might be from the rather nasty burn-out I encountered at the end of last Winter term.

One measuring stick that I'm prone to use would be the posts in this blog. I like to go back and read through past journal entries and homework assignments every so often, and the same goes for previous blogs. The discrepancy between the substance and focus of those blogs compared to my current stream is quite embarrassing to tell you the truth. Then again, I still do on occasion think about the opportunity cost of dating and the way that sunk costs factor into relationship efforts. Perhaps that should be the subject of my next blog.... It's just that a lot of things I've already touched upon, and instead of taking the effort to explain something different I go off on these random asides, like an IRS agent that is forced to retell Shakespeare in their own words while they're working on the audit of an old orphanage.... I've got too much math on the brain to really come to this and let everything loose. Pretty much, I've been reduced to cramming in a few scrambled thoughts whenever I feel a particular need to escape my integration filled life.

So, for my benefit instead of yours, here's a list of some things I should write about: sunk costs in relationship models, first impressions and their relationship with the way you trust a person later on (not necessarily contingent upon how trustworthy they act in the course of your acquaintanceship), the beauty-subjectivity gradient, mathematics in music, just how oblivious is oblivious, and the Jane Austen portrayal of two women after the same man as a more realistic depiction of romance than Hollywood's version of 2 men:woman... let me know if you have preferences for something over another, or other random suggestions. Oh, & I might just post my recipe for stress cookies. If I feel like it...